i am laid out in my full glorious formI am of the sea,

my body

sea foam and sparkling algae,

rises to the surface

each time the sun

greets the waves’ cresting arch.

 

I am of the sea,

I am water through and through,

I glide,

I shimmer,

I float.

I ride the ebbs and flows,

I am carried as a child in its mother’s womb,

the tide, washing me out and ashore

cleansing all that is not necessary,

all that does not belong to water,

out of me.

 

The tide rolls in and kisses the shore,

and I am laid out in my full glorious form,

wrung through the layers of sea and sand,

each granule and drop tells me a secret,

tells me from where my soul comes.

 

I dance as the water crests in the light,

I bounce and jump

delighting in the charged water

that gives life

and peace

and love.

 

I am at home in the ocean,

I am at ease with the tides,

I am of the sea.

I find myself searching.  I find myself, searching.  Searching for a light, a path, a way to personal peace, serenity, happiness.  The sun rises and the skies brighten; yet I awake with a heavy heart, my soul unsettled, it questions.  With both feet on the ground now I take stock of how I feel.  My muscles and joints ache.  There is sadness in my heart. And so I begin the daily search – I breathe, deep breaths, to cleanse my soul, cleanse my energy.  I reach my arms to the heavens to stretch my physical form, allowing my very breath to infiltrate and then fill every cell with the purity of the love that I hold within.  I feel somewhat centered now and so move on with my day.  But there is still that scent of sadness.  It is as if there is on one shoulder, my left, a bubble of happiness, and on the right, one of sadness.  And it is so much easier to look to the right.  And when I do, I find sadness just sitting and waiting.

I have tried many paths, searched for answers, solutions, ways to stave off the sadness, find happiness, heal my heart. I have searched with astrology, numerology, psychic readings, channeled readings, shamanic healings, energy clearings, Akashic Record Readings, past life readings, Jin Shin Jyutsu, yoga, meditation, aryuveda, Chinese medicine, and Marconics.  I search for a pathway that allows me to successfully search and find myself.  All of these pathways provide a light to our deepest insight, our deepest dreams, our deepest darkness.  They are all in their own right miraculous in that they do for those moments in time somehow break through and shatter the sadness, helping to balance and align the mind, body, and soul, allowing new insight and perspective, and often a new outlook on life itself.

The searching and finding is a process, a journey, a metaphor for life. If we live presently in each moment, search moment to moment for that peace, serenity and happiness, we can be at ease with our life and ourselves.  We can turn our heads to the left, and live in that happiness bubble – because in the present there is no worry or anxiety about what is coming or what may be, there is only what is.  We are truly capable of breathing in love and balance.  We can taste presence, and the greatness we hold for ourselves within.  So search. Search high and low. Do not leave any path untried. Search the heavens and the stars and the oceans and the shores. Search deeply within. And find yourself.

 

Resources for healing:

http://anniebossingham.com/

http://www.christelhughes.com/

http://suekrebs.wordpress.com/services/akashic-record-readings/

Jin Shin Jyutsu  - https://www.jsjinc.net/

Marconics  - http://www.marconicrecalibration.com/

The sea is where I find my quiet and stillness. It is where I can feel the wind kiss my skin, and where the secrets of the ocean’s tides can be heard as they carry a message to the shore and my soul.

the sea is where I find my quiet and stillnessAt the sea, my thoughts and feelings are crystallized; yet seem to freely flow as the tides flow with ease. Everything at the sea moves. The water, the air, the sounds of the currents covering and uncovering the earth’s sandy floor… At the sea, there is clarity and a freshness of perspective. It is where I go to find myself.

 

“The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.  Don’t go back to sleep!
”  ~Rumi

We experience things – traumas, hardships, heartbreak…  and they wake us up for a while.  We are able to see our world with a new perspective and open heart and soul, our minds accepting an expanded consciousness…. a boundless terrain of possibilities and options.  And then it is as if we are overwhelmed or overloaded, or that our minds cannot make sense of any more, and so we forget for awhile… We carry on in our humanness – with our responsibilities and obligations.  We suppress our inner wisdom and the draw it has on our soul.  We become sad and depressed, as repressing our true purpose and passion undermines our abilities to find and feel joy.  Until something else happens that jolts our very stability and strength.  And then once again, there is a traumatic or other heart opening experience that redirects us on to the path of spiritual exploration, integrity, and enlightenment.  How can we stay awake?  How can we prevent the sleeping sickness from taking over our beings?  The secrets Rumi writes about are the secrets of the universe, our personal universe as well as the collective and unified one.  Listen to the whispers, the gentle breeze that echoes through you.  In them you will surely find you.

And what an interesting discovery to see that those lines I quoted were part of this poemthe breeze at dawn:

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.

Don’t go back to sleep.

You must ask for what you really want.

Don’t go back to sleep.

People are going back and forth across the doorsill where the two worlds touch.

The door is round and open.

Don’t go back to sleep.

we can only be said to be alive

 

 

Gratefulness. Truly we can be grateful only when we recognize what makes our heart sing, our soul swoon, our very being dance with delight. Open your eyes, your heart, your soul, your mind and see and feel and smell and touch and taste the world. It is through those experiences that we become conscious of our treasures. 

 

Day 5:
1. I am grateful for the gift of love that I am able to give and receive.
2. I am grateful for the land on which I live and how it is bountiful with flowers and vegetables and fruit, and that it is home to so many lovely unique and colorful creatures.
3. I am grateful for the ocean and how it has called to me and reminded me that I have the soul of a mermaid.

What treasures are you grateful for?

 

 

 

gratitude bestows reverence

 

1. I am grateful to be inspired everyday by the writing, philosophy, and wisdom of great thinkers. There are so many great works to read… so much insight and perspective to make us think about things deeply.

2. I am grateful to all the writers, artists, healers, and teachers who diligently post everyday on facebook, putting inspirational messages, and words of encouragement and support into our world. And I am grateful to be amongst them! 
3. I am grateful for the time to just be able to sit and read! I am always delighted to have that space for myself. Not unlike being out in nature, it somehow helps ground me and allows me the reflection and thought I need.

What are you grateful for today?

Positivity Challenge, Day 3:
Sometimes you just have to be grateful for a moment in time where everything feels perfectly balanced. It is in those times that your worries, or doubts, or fears all melt away. There is no pressure and no sadness. More importantly, there is no expectation. You are divinely present on the continuum of time, and energy. Here are three moments from my recent travels – spectacular, beautiful, and exquisitely perfect in their own right – that I was blessed to witness and be a part of:

1. I caught this magical moment of water, light, and rainbows of color in Nimes;

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2. I was mesmerized by the vibrant scent and color in the fields of lavender in Provence;IMG_1686

and

3. I was fascinated by all the doors and windows that we saw but was drawn to this beautiful painted doorway in the 13th century town of Roussillon.

 

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Please share your moments – post pictures, comments, thoughts… and help create a wave of gratitude!

What are you grateful for today?
what are you grateful for todayPositivity Challenge Day 2:
1. I am grateful for the sunshine that lights my day and brightens my path and generally makes everything look a little better than I thought. 
2. I am grateful that I live so close to the ocean – and that I am able to see, hear, and feel it everyday. I make it a point to see the water at least once in my day, usually it is a walk on the beach, weather permitting of course!
3. I am grateful for the birds that sing outside my window in my backyard – reminding me that there is so much in life to sing and be happy about. Whenever I see creatures of nature I stop and watch how amazing life truly is. 
Please join in and share what you are grateful for!

 

what are you grateful for

Oh, no! It’s the Positivity Challenge! I actually have been dreading this … hoping to not get nominated. But when I saw that I had been tagged in a post, I found I had no choice but to accept the challenge: “Today I nominate Dani Pring, Jill Alman-Bernstein and Arielle Manzi to begin the challenge where you name 3 things you are grateful for for the next 5 days and nominate 3 people to join in each day. Finding something to be grateful for everyday helps us see just how lucky and blessed we truly are. ~Rose, Believe The Best is Yet To Come.”

I figured it would probably be good for me to think about, identify, and be grateful for what is in my life. I bet it would make me feel better too. When we see and then focus on the good things around us, the blessings, the miracles, the positives, we do look at the world differently. There is a shift in our mood, in our perspective, in our attitude, and in our day. It was the having to nominate three people each day that was threatening to derail me. If you are like me, I cringe at chain letter type e-mails. And I am very uncomfortable about obligating other people. After all, how many e-mails and facebook posts asking us to send this to several people can we really participate in? And then I had this idea to post it here on I Must Be A Mermaid and invite all of you to participate. No pressure. If you are feeling it, you will do it. So for the next five days, starting today, announce, declare three things that you are grateful for. We will put our collective grateful energy into the universe. Imagine what we can create with all that gratefulness! So let’s do this together. Accept the Positivity Challenge!

 

 

 

 

it's time to ask yourself.jpgI have been pondering one of my catch phrases …. “Dive deep.” Meaning is a subjective thing. We give everything in our life meaning by the value we place on it.   So I asked myself, what is the value of diving deep into my heart and soul? The painful unraveling of the puzzle of who I am, chiseling the layers of self protection to discover that essence, where every breath, if I let it, helps shatter the illusions, the non truths, inviting me to reach for and grasp my very passion and purpose that I am diving for, to find and live in alignment and balance.

We dive for the inspiration to get through our day, our life. We dive for answers to our many questions. We dive with our mermaid sisters so we can know that we are not alone, that we are supported and loved though our journey is fraught with emotional undertows.

We dive deeply into our selves so that we may find our highest and greatest good, so that we can know peace and joy in our soul. For when we follow our passion, we indeed find our purpose and then our world all at once makes perfect sense. Dive deep…